Touch the Missing Memory

I've never gone with the wind

Just let it flow

Let it take me where it wants to go

Till you open the door

There's so much more

I've never seen it before

I was trying to fly

But I couldn't find wings

Then you came along

And you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground

Spin me around

You make me crazier, crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

Funny how songs brings back old memories

and

bring back how you felt that moment that made the song especial

I know, but u dun care,

You let me feel lonely again

Even though pain is the only i can gain

The reason’s fading

I know it’ going to hurt myself when you walk out of the door

But i swear it’s going to hurt me even more

Nite of 20/10/10 ( 3week i still waiting you )

Drop for Hope..

Darkness of nite will become clam when the moon light is shoot on something lost.

When you clear to look about it, you will know what i mean of it.

Life not so easy like cloud can fly over here and there.

No people will know what will happen on the next day.

When i look at the cloud are moving slow, i feel the time is pass.

Could we change the fact of it. our life is climb, i almost see it but i miss it.

No people will know what i am trying to do and i keep trying and trying until you feel i am around you.

Right now I feel invisible to you

Like I'm not real

Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?

Why'd you turn away?

Here's what I have to say

I was left to cry there

Waitin' outside there

That's when I decided

When I was scared

I was so alone

You, you need to listen

When you turn around

Can you recognize my face?

You used to love me

You used to hug me

I was left to cry there

Cryin' out loud

I'm cryin' out, loud

Cryin' out loud

I'm cryin' out

Open your eyes

Open up wide

We're not goin' anywhere

I guess what i am doing is what i want to do.

I will keep waiting of you.

Because i still love you.

Reflash Our Memory

Since today 18/10

1 month left for me in Setapak.

I din know what mean of the feel. Until today, i still miss of you, really pain when keep lie myself but i know you won care about me anymore. I dunno what you mind is thinking. Until today until now, i still remember of our memory, very hard to 4get it. I wish i the virus can eat all my data but its fail because i still love you.

I wish i still can give you the feel you missing it. I really try my heart to find out what is the problem but maybe is too late.

my sick still around me

only you can cure about it

Here's the thing we started off friend

It was cool but it was all pretend

You dedicated you took the time

Wasn't long till I called you mine

And all you'd ever hear me say

Is how I pictured me with you

That's all you'd ever hear me say

Thanks to you

Now I get

What I want

I even fell for that stupid love song

I just wanna be with you

I guess you never felt that way

You had your chance you blew it

Out of sight, out of mind

Shut your mouth I just can't take it

Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight

I know that I've got issues

Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

I really shouldn't miss you

But I can't let you go

If there are 1000 steps between us, you only need to take the 1st step

The i will take the remaining 999 steps toward you

Your trying to get me back is only

Succeeding in pushing me even fyrther away

No longer remember your name

Thank you for let me forget it

How did we go from “ i love you “ to not being able to look at one another

What’s the point of lovin someone

This time was different

Felt like i was just a victim

You know, i’ve come to realize something about you

Our heart has its own way of saying

“ im miss you”

Would you One of Them

I know no effort to find compared to find you

If you can’t find a better image for the sake of the game again with the self-deception

Together we will need the courage to surrender

Is only then that we do not believe they fell in love

I, you had a dream I wish you more joy

Love you, and know that this argument

Love is no need to get together after numerous scattered

I, like life, never too far away but also do not believe were destined not

Am I right to be loyal to my chosen

Did I miss

My favorite of the reasons for the failure of my favorite budget

I was always a moment to make your dream s the heart were also safety

Should devout enough to carry away enough to be afraid of life is too short

Why not a love life

If anyone, who would like to transfer enough

Definitely not be considered stupid found out who did not procured

I was always a moment to make your dream s the heart were also safety

We will end with the first one you

Do not rely on any mystery is not all because of not lower your mercy

I, a few that come to you

One life one love

Suddenly i feel like to write my friend in my blog.

As we know, different of friend i having but with want is honest ? caring ?

No one will know until one day yourself aware by own hand ?

Everyone sure have friend. But having too many friend, is that there will help you.

According to wikipedia " In a comparison of personal relationships, friendship is considered to be closer than association, although there is a range of degrees of intimacy in both friendships and associations. Friendship and association can be thought of as spanning across the same continuum. The study of friendship is included in sociology, social psychology, anthropology, philosophy, and zoology. Various theories of friendship have been proposed, among which are social exchange theory, equity theory, relational dialectics, and attachment styles. "

But in my mind, meaning friend to me is friend is a special of someone can accompany during you happy, sad or other feeling thing. Sharing is caring for normal we listen. But not majority of friend can keep you as good, but some is selfish. How to make sure the person is good and kind, when each other spent more time on each other, always hang out and trust each other. All of the kind will giving a nice friendship to you. When become a friend will come a best friend for there life. So we should know how to choose friend to become your friend better then alone and lonely.

History of my friend for my life.

Kindergarten - Pang Shen

SKWJ - Jackie, Jun Wee, Mandy.

SMK Sek.5,wangsa maju - Katak, Kelly, PF, PS, Munirah N the Geng and some Senior

SMK Seri Saujana - Wan Ling, Jessie, Kah Yan and Chin Ling

TARC SPUS - Vivian....

Basketball - 1 Team of group..

Internet - Nicole, Calvin,Alex ( SHORT XD )

But I found out by my hand, which of the friend can be make a true friend or not. Maybe make some new friend will take some time to become best friend. i wish you is the one of them become my best friend. Thank You for spent time and care about me..

zach + pf + mandy + katak

Smk S5, Wangsa Maju Senior N me ( 2010 )

Event Planner Company Friend

30Hour Famine Buddy

Career Guidance Society ( CGS ) Friend

TARC SPUS Best Friend ( 2009 )

TARC May 2010 Games N Telematch Clash TARian Friend

Pengisahan Kenegaraan 1Malaysia Friend ( Pahlawan Pasir Salak )

This is my story, are you will be my next friend.. 5.53am 13/10/2010

10.10.10

Actually today i should happy

Maybe without someone

I just wish you won left me alone without care me.

I still remember, you ask me give you time but i very care of you.

Can you spent me some time on me.

Is that really what you said is correct then what i say is wrong.

Why is can happen to me.

I know i just lie myself because i dun1 to lost you.

Finally i need the face the fact but can don hate me anymore

I know before this i did all is stupid

What else love some one, all of this kind way will happen

How many love i can spent anymore.

You not allow me to spent even care you..

Is very hurt me.

Why you did this to me.

But when i alone, i was found out

If i found it, so how ?

Can i use it.

No rite..

Because what i did before this, all useless..

Why you did it to me

My heart aredy pain now more pain.

I just hope you can treat me like last time even we not in relationship anymore

Actually my love on you still in my heart

i will keep it but sometime will runing out from the heart.

This wan i cant control.

Hope you will understand.

Even now, whatever happen

I tell you, i still need your care of me.

Can you did for me, spent me some time

I know i was very selfish. Just for me only

I still remember, when i 1st time treat you on date.

Even now different but i hope you still can treat me like we 1st time for date

I know my love on you, but i will try to control myself.

Pls allow me, is not my fault to loving some one, then wrong and i should blame the love on wrong person. I din wish you to give me other chance even i did it before for you giving other chance. but now i just wish you can give me a time and attention to me.

Even people said me cheap

Maybe say me useless.

There won understand of love.

A loyal love between you and me

When totally falling love with you

Even a hug to me is very give me a big meaning

And can you dont leave me alone.

Promise me ?

From my art work, i would tell you

For Zach

Thank for you care

But i need some1 that very important to me to care me

Now how many people add me, i dun care.

Because my heart are still with you.

I really dunno why.

Can you tell me.

Turning Feeling into Drop of Tears

This is sincere heart about my feeling and the word I would like to tell you.

Only b4zach can crying for you.

Is time for me to say Good Bye Love feeling.

I dunno what i did is correct or wrong b4 this because that time i very love you

maybe I too selfish better then i lie myself.

I really love you but I din't why you din give me a chance.

now my love turn to died town

is not your fault, is my fault.

i take it by my own hand, i made myself become like this

now i find out, what i did is that i wan and is show my love to you

but now all gone because you no more love me.

now I just wish and hope you still will keep all the thing that i gift you.

make it as your memory.

keep our relationship become last time when you 1st time meet me as friendship , it is because i cant forget our memory. Become friend or best friend is weird for me.

I know, how many times you said to me " STOP it, Efut ", i dun know to listen because i dun1 accept the fact but now i dun1 hide sumore and i need to face the true !! Hope you can understand my meaning. Maybe you will be happy when I write this but if I got problem, i still can find you and you also can did it to me when you had problem. I still can protect you.

Yes, i know i am childish, i got wish you to love me back, but i know is too late. Now i just hope you still care of me even we not in relationship.

When every night i keep and force myself to sleep.

I will remember the memory and re-flash all the movement when together with you.

I just wish, I still can hug you but if you not allow and i wish you still can accompany me when i am alone but if you dislike, i will understand the different between now and before.

I will remember all the memory when together with you will become the history and memory.

Now my life is easy because i still can chat with you. Is time for me let go the sadness memory

Thank You, you have change my life a lot when i look the sky keep changing to different colour in 24hours seem like our relationship.

For a last time i say to you.

Why Lost Feel

6/10 I dunno what i am doing, i really dunno what should i do ? what is can happen to me, i really cant understand what i did until you did like this to me..

Why you left me

Why you did this to me

Why you din give me a chance

Why you do this for me

Why i still miss you

the fact i very love you

how many sorry, you will forgive me

i cant lie myself.

i won forget our memory when together with you.

Everybody needs inspiration,

Everbody needs a song.

A beautiful melody,

When the night's so long.

Cause there is no guarantee,

That this love is hard.

Yeah when my world is falling apart.

When there's no light to break up the dark,

That's when I look at you.

When the sadness are flooding around me

and I can't find my way home anymore.

You, appear to me every second when i lost you

Just like hurt myself and lie myself

That chance to forgive me,

All I need,

Every breath that I breathe,

Don't you know you're angry of me

Every second i miss of you

How this can happen to me ?

3.24pm