10.10.10

Actually today i should happy

Maybe without someone

I just wish you won left me alone without care me.

I still remember, you ask me give you time but i very care of you.

Can you spent me some time on me.

Is that really what you said is correct then what i say is wrong.

Why is can happen to me.

I know i just lie myself because i dun1 to lost you.

Finally i need the face the fact but can don hate me anymore

I know before this i did all is stupid

What else love some one, all of this kind way will happen

How many love i can spent anymore.

You not allow me to spent even care you..

Is very hurt me.

Why you did this to me.

But when i alone, i was found out

If i found it, so how ?

Can i use it.

No rite..

Because what i did before this, all useless..

Why you did it to me

My heart aredy pain now more pain.

I just hope you can treat me like last time even we not in relationship anymore

Actually my love on you still in my heart

i will keep it but sometime will runing out from the heart.

This wan i cant control.

Hope you will understand.

Even now, whatever happen

I tell you, i still need your care of me.

Can you did for me, spent me some time

I know i was very selfish. Just for me only

I still remember, when i 1st time treat you on date.

Even now different but i hope you still can treat me like we 1st time for date

I know my love on you, but i will try to control myself.

Pls allow me, is not my fault to loving some one, then wrong and i should blame the love on wrong person. I din wish you to give me other chance even i did it before for you giving other chance. but now i just wish you can give me a time and attention to me.

Even people said me cheap

Maybe say me useless.

There won understand of love.

A loyal love between you and me

When totally falling love with you

Even a hug to me is very give me a big meaning

And can you dont leave me alone.

Promise me ?

From my art work, i would tell you

For Zach

Thank for you care

But i need some1 that very important to me to care me

Now how many people add me, i dun care.

Because my heart are still with you.

I really dunno why.

Can you tell me.

Turning Feeling into Drop of Tears

This is sincere heart about my feeling and the word I would like to tell you.

Only b4zach can crying for you.

Is time for me to say Good Bye Love feeling.

I dunno what i did is correct or wrong b4 this because that time i very love you

maybe I too selfish better then i lie myself.

I really love you but I din't why you din give me a chance.

now my love turn to died town

is not your fault, is my fault.

i take it by my own hand, i made myself become like this

now i find out, what i did is that i wan and is show my love to you

but now all gone because you no more love me.

now I just wish and hope you still will keep all the thing that i gift you.

make it as your memory.

keep our relationship become last time when you 1st time meet me as friendship , it is because i cant forget our memory. Become friend or best friend is weird for me.

I know, how many times you said to me " STOP it, Efut ", i dun know to listen because i dun1 accept the fact but now i dun1 hide sumore and i need to face the true !! Hope you can understand my meaning. Maybe you will be happy when I write this but if I got problem, i still can find you and you also can did it to me when you had problem. I still can protect you.

Yes, i know i am childish, i got wish you to love me back, but i know is too late. Now i just hope you still care of me even we not in relationship.

When every night i keep and force myself to sleep.

I will remember the memory and re-flash all the movement when together with you.

I just wish, I still can hug you but if you not allow and i wish you still can accompany me when i am alone but if you dislike, i will understand the different between now and before.

I will remember all the memory when together with you will become the history and memory.

Now my life is easy because i still can chat with you. Is time for me let go the sadness memory

Thank You, you have change my life a lot when i look the sky keep changing to different colour in 24hours seem like our relationship.

For a last time i say to you.

Why Lost Feel

6/10 I dunno what i am doing, i really dunno what should i do ? what is can happen to me, i really cant understand what i did until you did like this to me..

Why you left me

Why you did this to me

Why you din give me a chance

Why you do this for me

Why i still miss you

the fact i very love you

how many sorry, you will forgive me

i cant lie myself.

i won forget our memory when together with you.

Everybody needs inspiration,

Everbody needs a song.

A beautiful melody,

When the night's so long.

Cause there is no guarantee,

That this love is hard.

Yeah when my world is falling apart.

When there's no light to break up the dark,

That's when I look at you.

When the sadness are flooding around me

and I can't find my way home anymore.

You, appear to me every second when i lost you

Just like hurt myself and lie myself

That chance to forgive me,

All I need,

Every breath that I breathe,

Don't you know you're angry of me

Every second i miss of you

How this can happen to me ?

3.24pm

Finally..

today 5/10, the day is weird.. got sun but rain. i really cant understand what is happen.

maybe this is call our life to treat the earth. maybe today after alot people hit by rain, tomolo will be fever.

today i scary 4.15pm, i have no idea wat will happen but finally is happen, i really cant accept the fact, why you treat me like this, i not selfish but i really cant lie myself. if i doing something make you angry, i am stupid. Look down on me if i did something, why. i din understand, but now myself also look down myself..

i dunno what should i do ?

what way i should move ?

why is can happen on me ?

this is maybe is my last blog.

History Of Memory

I am very sorry, sorry, sorry and very sorry.

Sorry, i din know what i am doing ? is tat correct or wrong. But what i did , is my heart tell me to do it based on my feeling. Maybe this time i will make you ANGRY or HATE me. I din know how to explain to you my feeling . But if you aredy choose the way, what i can do anymore. I cant force you to love me again. Maybe this is my fate. My life will become loser and useless.

b4 that, i wish to tell you something, actually during the exam. I was thinking, is that i will lost you. I have write down our story in my exam paper as my essay.

Beside that, got 1 time write down our 1st day date and i so worry myself when i sick doing my exam and you so care about me.

this is my art work story between us

I still remember all the day, 1st time hold your hand. Maybe now aredy become memory of my part. History on my love have add one more in my list. Sorry i still blaming myself, why i still miss you and love you, is that i too love you. Even my ex break with me, i din sad like this, this is my 1st time sad and emo until like this.

I not going take your attention, i not going steal your caring but i just hope you giving 1 more chance to show you my true heart and my attidude change T_T i very sorry before this.

I feel unlimited kinds of sadness when you're gone.

I feel the same thing always happens when you're gone

And I know you're just around the corner

But just around the corner is not enough

It's not enough

My heart are waiting at the door

Just like every time before!

It's not enough, I don't know why

It's not enough, I miss you all the time

If i can return the time, i promise i won repeat anymore.

Pure Fate of Sorry

4/10 entry of today is 4th day of morning , i still miss you. Every night i dream about our memory. When i close my eyes, all memory between me and you recall with reflash in my mind. If i say it out, sure alot people will laugh of me. Thank my friend is caring me, sorry, i not off my phone it is because i listen music in bus until battery finish.Do u know, after that day u tell me, i very emo in LRT until i did something that myself cant accept. Actually that day i should went back to hometown but i going to Melaka, no bealive me rite.

Here is my bukti..

I so enjoy in Melaka, going beach alone but my mind still remember someone.

22hour in Melaka, i still miss you. I trying very hard to forget about you but is very pain.

When i in bus, what should i do ? miss someone until i duno do what ?

In my heart, i still got so many many thing to tell n make it.

When i explain, you tell me “ I dun know “. Actually if you reli duno have the feel, why u still treat me good, i know you dun1 me get hurt. When the second you left me alone, my heart aredy hurt like some1 taking my heart away from my body. I know my heart have become useless to you, about i donate other organ to you. Which part you wan ?

Maybe some people saying, doing your best activity will make you forget something sadness.

Basketball will bcome my choice, playing basketball with my friend. Mid night until early morning.

Thank you bro, i know you all worry about me but i know what i did. There all try to help me, ask me to wake up and some ask me dont give up. I din know how to do until i tell my story to them. This is 1st time my friend saw me so emo when telling the relationship. I know even we know very and make it too fast maybe will end early but if i know you early but din chase you, i will maybe lost you or i am late. If you like something, how hard also, you will try to get it. So i will did same thing to you, because i find out, you is very important to me, pls give me rebuild , refixed and repair our feeling.

Anywhere, if you reading my blog, i here wan said something to you, i very sorry, sorry because i too over take care of you, too over love you and i forget to care you feeling and your freedom until you become tension because of me. I wish i can U-turn and i follow what you said then won happen like today, but i last nite 3/10 i doing something very stupid, i should to know.

I not a prince or sumwhere fairy tell story. Not cinderella can change myself to beautiful, sleeping beauty get a prince kiss for a love. But if i never try how i know the result and i take this step to talk to you. Would you give me 1 more chance, i promise you, i swear to God, i will change. It is because i still love you, dear T_T” i din know why i still love you.

I hope you will understand

and take your time to spent

I am Sorry..

I always waiting of you..

12.50am 4/10

Hide or Fate..

Living in our life begin with baby. Almost baby born out will cry to show

“ I am scary, where i am “

When a baby saw a nurse, this is a world of human being. Being baby or kids is the time for ourself to watch and learn. When day by day and second by second passing around the time. Age will grow mature and changing of thinking. Education and money, how important there are ?

Could we use education and money to buy a relationship call LOVE.

Our parent always tell us. Money can earn when you hardworking. Education can learn anytime because education in this world never ending. But love is very hard to seeking. To me, when you have found 1 of the love, would you let it go or care about it. When is the time coming, all thing will become true. Why we must have the feel of the love. Can we see the feel thru our eyes, can we touch it thru my hand or can we smell it thru our nose. But only the heart never lie when feel that person tell you. This is i cant understand, why suddenly feeling can lost ? who stolen it ? actually no people stolen it, just you disliked the person and the best away to tell is no feeling. But what feeling you all looking ? safely feel, caring feel or what else ? i totally cant understand the feel.

do u know, love some one is nothing wrong and not our fault but if loving wrong person is a big mistake. I still remember the how to write a love. Look Of Value Element ? do is mean this.

But when you grow up, could you tell me.

What should we do ?

To who have be fall in love before or now in a relationship ?

If your lover very love you, care of you, spent time with you, going date with you and try to make you become more happy if you happy and accompany you when you sad.

Is the fair or not, if your lover reqeust you spent him/her 30minute per day for a chat.

Because of no feeling, this is the best reason for breakup.

No people know what is happen on me and i din wish to tell.

But i know is too late areally but i hope you will giving me a chance to show you, i did

all because I love you. I will keep waiting of you. No people can replace you for my feeling that you giving me the feel is different from other people

i really din know why you will left me and i din know why i so love you.

- Photo Have Be DELETE -

Every 14/2 “ i will remember the date if we still together "

Every 20/2 “ i very miss you, hope you will accept me "

My Final Move

I duno how to speak with you

I duno how to face with you

I duno how to care of you

I duno how to love you

Serious, now in my heart

you is the most important to me..

I know, i did a lot thing.

The time and friendship destroy us..

But i will wait you..