Myths on Feeling

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Crying alone

Confused and lonely inside

Standing in the crowd

But I can’t shake the emptiness inside

I feel so lost

I let time and nights pass me by

Love had no meaning

Feeling is the cause

Rejection is #pain, 

but the most painful is losing you in unfair value when adjustment takes time to process. 

6 Jan 2023

Be My Love

 Even when you didn't know me

I used to pray. Always touching me with your gaze

The more I try to get to you, its getting further

I don't know how you feel

You know all about it, is it unfamiliar ?

That's how you look, I like everything about it

I can feel it when I miss you. Being next to you when it's hard

I want to be a valuable part to you 

You are the person who changed me. You're too much to me

If you're my part, that's so wonderful 

You know everything, but you pretend 

and try to avoid. That's how you look 

You're so pretty in my eyes

Feb 2021

Worst Chapter 2019

Dear Zach, 

I saw you crying 

See you being discouraged

I see you don't dare to sleep 

The world takes everything you have 

Leave the failure to accompany 

But reject your rejection 

Exploring the night eager but afraid of the light 

You lost your way, let me take you there 

You were never loved 

~ Sad Memory 2019 ~

- Last Post -

I think it's love that makes me standing right here 

It's love that makes my heart want to keep holding on

Although there is only a little chance 

Even if I have to stumble again

Love would still ask me to do this 

To give it to you until you take it

To tell you I love you until you give in

You are my happiness 

Even if you don't take my love now, 
I don't mind starting it all over again 

If in the end, you haven't changed your mind 

It's okay because my heart will never change

If you want to wait until my heart stops beating for you, 

you might have to wait until the world stops spinning 

I think it's love that gives meaning to the word 'life'

It's love that makes waiting easeful
Although the chances are slim

Even if I have to miss many other things 

This wait is worth it because it is you who is at the destination 

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Cross Over Memories

Just to see you off here

Even if I cant understand your thoughts

Maybe you still haven't been aware that I'm waiting for you

Don't understand my true heart

Loneliness always easily break me when I pretend to be independent

Reaching the limit of madness

Letting the feeling accumulated

We are slowly getting closer

Once we cross this unguarded line

It does not matter who's in or out

We're not different

But repeatedly miss the several moments to be connected with each other

You've crossed the line

It does not break the rules and there is nothing to blame

Because the limit of love already surpassed the understanding

Just let us move forward

When we exceed the limits, don't move backwards

You hold my hand

You and I plucked up our courage to hold a hand

You told me why you had fallen in love me at that time

You said... 

You will always... 

Like me...

 ~ 520 ~

Distance

Distance...

Can't separate us apart

We're just an arm each away

But loving you

It's more important

And more precious than anything else

I promise

I'will remember everything

Regardless of the good or bad

Happiness or suffering

I'll forever think of the times we had together

and everything about you

So even until my last breath

I won't forget about you

The horizon, and the balcony

Where we used to stand

And look up the sky together, that tree

I'll take care of it

To remember us, when you're not here

I promise you

I'll remember everything

I'll remember and love you just like this

5/5/18

Faded

How good it is that we came to love, to bond

To get through a lot of things together

It's love that never expects anyone to understand

There's only us holding hands by each other's side 

I don't know what you are afraid or worrying about 

That you don't dare to say what we are

The answer is here, in our hearts

~ 22/2/2018 ~

#FriendZone

Just to be close to your breath

Just to be able to spend time together

We're just friends. but it's too much to hold back

Your feelings deep inside, what are you thinking?

However much I love you, I've never said it.

I keep everything in my heart inside

Just being happy like this is already great

Will you have a feeling for me?

Have you ever looked at me?

What are we?

Will you have feelings for me?

It's the truth I want to know that's stuck in my heart

But I don't want to ask 

I'm afraid you'll change

Not asking is better

Because I know if I ask you

I'm afraid of those words that might break my heart

I keep everything in my heart inside

Just being happy like this is already great

It's the truth I want to know that's stuck in my heart

But I don't want to ask 

I'm afraid I won't be able to accept it

- First and Last Post-July 2017 / Graduated Master Degree -