Finally..

today 5/10, the day is weird.. got sun but rain. i really cant understand what is happen.

maybe this is call our life to treat the earth. maybe today after alot people hit by rain, tomolo will be fever.

today i scary 4.15pm, i have no idea wat will happen but finally is happen, i really cant accept the fact, why you treat me like this, i not selfish but i really cant lie myself. if i doing something make you angry, i am stupid. Look down on me if i did something, why. i din understand, but now myself also look down myself..

i dunno what should i do ?

what way i should move ?

why is can happen on me ?

this is maybe is my last blog.

History Of Memory

I am very sorry, sorry, sorry and very sorry.

Sorry, i din know what i am doing ? is tat correct or wrong. But what i did , is my heart tell me to do it based on my feeling. Maybe this time i will make you ANGRY or HATE me. I din know how to explain to you my feeling . But if you aredy choose the way, what i can do anymore. I cant force you to love me again. Maybe this is my fate. My life will become loser and useless.

b4 that, i wish to tell you something, actually during the exam. I was thinking, is that i will lost you. I have write down our story in my exam paper as my essay.

Beside that, got 1 time write down our 1st day date and i so worry myself when i sick doing my exam and you so care about me.

this is my art work story between us

I still remember all the day, 1st time hold your hand. Maybe now aredy become memory of my part. History on my love have add one more in my list. Sorry i still blaming myself, why i still miss you and love you, is that i too love you. Even my ex break with me, i din sad like this, this is my 1st time sad and emo until like this.

I not going take your attention, i not going steal your caring but i just hope you giving 1 more chance to show you my true heart and my attidude change T_T i very sorry before this.

I feel unlimited kinds of sadness when you're gone.

I feel the same thing always happens when you're gone

And I know you're just around the corner

But just around the corner is not enough

It's not enough

My heart are waiting at the door

Just like every time before!

It's not enough, I don't know why

It's not enough, I miss you all the time

If i can return the time, i promise i won repeat anymore.

Pure Fate of Sorry

4/10 entry of today is 4th day of morning , i still miss you. Every night i dream about our memory. When i close my eyes, all memory between me and you recall with reflash in my mind. If i say it out, sure alot people will laugh of me. Thank my friend is caring me, sorry, i not off my phone it is because i listen music in bus until battery finish.Do u know, after that day u tell me, i very emo in LRT until i did something that myself cant accept. Actually that day i should went back to hometown but i going to Melaka, no bealive me rite.

Here is my bukti..

I so enjoy in Melaka, going beach alone but my mind still remember someone.

22hour in Melaka, i still miss you. I trying very hard to forget about you but is very pain.

When i in bus, what should i do ? miss someone until i duno do what ?

In my heart, i still got so many many thing to tell n make it.

When i explain, you tell me “ I dun know “. Actually if you reli duno have the feel, why u still treat me good, i know you dun1 me get hurt. When the second you left me alone, my heart aredy hurt like some1 taking my heart away from my body. I know my heart have become useless to you, about i donate other organ to you. Which part you wan ?

Maybe some people saying, doing your best activity will make you forget something sadness.

Basketball will bcome my choice, playing basketball with my friend. Mid night until early morning.

Thank you bro, i know you all worry about me but i know what i did. There all try to help me, ask me to wake up and some ask me dont give up. I din know how to do until i tell my story to them. This is 1st time my friend saw me so emo when telling the relationship. I know even we know very and make it too fast maybe will end early but if i know you early but din chase you, i will maybe lost you or i am late. If you like something, how hard also, you will try to get it. So i will did same thing to you, because i find out, you is very important to me, pls give me rebuild , refixed and repair our feeling.

Anywhere, if you reading my blog, i here wan said something to you, i very sorry, sorry because i too over take care of you, too over love you and i forget to care you feeling and your freedom until you become tension because of me. I wish i can U-turn and i follow what you said then won happen like today, but i last nite 3/10 i doing something very stupid, i should to know.

I not a prince or sumwhere fairy tell story. Not cinderella can change myself to beautiful, sleeping beauty get a prince kiss for a love. But if i never try how i know the result and i take this step to talk to you. Would you give me 1 more chance, i promise you, i swear to God, i will change. It is because i still love you, dear T_T” i din know why i still love you.

I hope you will understand

and take your time to spent

I am Sorry..

I always waiting of you..

12.50am 4/10

Hide or Fate..

Living in our life begin with baby. Almost baby born out will cry to show

“ I am scary, where i am “

When a baby saw a nurse, this is a world of human being. Being baby or kids is the time for ourself to watch and learn. When day by day and second by second passing around the time. Age will grow mature and changing of thinking. Education and money, how important there are ?

Could we use education and money to buy a relationship call LOVE.

Our parent always tell us. Money can earn when you hardworking. Education can learn anytime because education in this world never ending. But love is very hard to seeking. To me, when you have found 1 of the love, would you let it go or care about it. When is the time coming, all thing will become true. Why we must have the feel of the love. Can we see the feel thru our eyes, can we touch it thru my hand or can we smell it thru our nose. But only the heart never lie when feel that person tell you. This is i cant understand, why suddenly feeling can lost ? who stolen it ? actually no people stolen it, just you disliked the person and the best away to tell is no feeling. But what feeling you all looking ? safely feel, caring feel or what else ? i totally cant understand the feel.

do u know, love some one is nothing wrong and not our fault but if loving wrong person is a big mistake. I still remember the how to write a love. Look Of Value Element ? do is mean this.

But when you grow up, could you tell me.

What should we do ?

To who have be fall in love before or now in a relationship ?

If your lover very love you, care of you, spent time with you, going date with you and try to make you become more happy if you happy and accompany you when you sad.

Is the fair or not, if your lover reqeust you spent him/her 30minute per day for a chat.

Because of no feeling, this is the best reason for breakup.

No people know what is happen on me and i din wish to tell.

But i know is too late areally but i hope you will giving me a chance to show you, i did

all because I love you. I will keep waiting of you. No people can replace you for my feeling that you giving me the feel is different from other people

i really din know why you will left me and i din know why i so love you.

- Photo Have Be DELETE -

Every 14/2 “ i will remember the date if we still together "

Every 20/2 “ i very miss you, hope you will accept me "

My Final Move

I duno how to speak with you

I duno how to face with you

I duno how to care of you

I duno how to love you

Serious, now in my heart

you is the most important to me..

I know, i did a lot thing.

The time and friendship destroy us..

But i will wait you..

Heart On My Side with You..

I know i was did something wrong

but maybe i think too much

I din mean i want make you angry of me

I just want you care of me

I din mean will make a lot problem

Sorry, I promise won happen anymore

But i wish i can accompany you

when you sad, i will make you happy

when you happy, i will make you more happy

this is what i wish

i dint mean i want to control you

I won't talk

I won't breathe

I won't move till you finally see

that you belong with me

you might think

I don't look

but deep inside in the corner of my mind

I'm attach to you

I'm weak

it's true

cause I'm afraid to know the answer

do you want me too?

cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line

to the only thing thats true

so I will not hide

i'ts time to try anything to be with you

all my life I've waited

this is true

you don't know

what you do

every time you walk into the room

I'm afraid to move

I'm weak

it's true

I'm just scared to know the ending

do you see me too?

do you even know you meant me!

I know when I go

I'll be on my way to you

the way that's true

of my love on you

without my lie of you

i promise

Limited Of Love Time

Sky eyes and blink a few times

To learn to move

Night sky peppered with stars

But a few will fall down

I have the occasion of the flight, but you fall

Very close to also hear the breathing

I'm sorry I did not prediction you

I insist on letting you cry can not say

Your tears like a heavy rain

Montreal broken

Clear in the mind

Hovering in the high altitude where you can not see

Many things that you do not know..

Ending of Sept 2010, i still here, be strong to fighting.

Busying of my life with event, study and of course facebook ^^"

I find out the most enjoying my life is

" Going to Move new House " ^^v hope will happen on it..

Life getting pain when end of year, fighting for something.

But do i still looking what should I fight. Actually i found out aredy, i not alone in the war..

time for fight fight ^^

Yesterday, today or tomolo

past, now or later

nothing going to stop me

careless will make people bcome sad

loveless will make people worry about it

trustless will make people hate of you

time for everything

I should tnx for friend is treat me like friend to give me support beside, in front or behind me

because of you

i not going had a bad day

since you been gone to teach me

i learn and learn

now is time to show my talent

love is always blind of eyes side

but feel won lie your heart

no more acting, faking and stupid

i won let it go easy

this time i will try hold tight for my myself

Fate Of Blind..

This is my blog, if u wish to read then u read if not just click X at the top of your left hand side.. Now i here not giving a speech or talk. Is my life is my fate of my feeling.. About my family, friend, sum1 i need it and myself

Family

i from poor family, not poor of money but poor of love. What is family love ? no people will understand of my family background even myself also cant understand. Father, mother, sister and brother = perfect family this what people say. But to me, i reli cant feel wat is family life... since small i stay with my grandmother, maybe of this i cant feel what is family life. I think when i was kid i so happy, i hope i can turn back the time but i cant do it. Now grow and grow, time past and past, now growing up. Feeling is turn around, play around. Everday need to fact a painful family. if my family like Crayon Shin Chan family, sure very happy and fun. Now, everyday every second need to fact alot impression. Even what happend, I LOVE U, Mama..

Friend

So long i live in this world, i still haven find what mean of friend ? what people can tell me is friend got alot of type, sum people will b ur friend if u rich, sum is u got car or maybe too over to say if u got looking and got status, sure alot people will stick with u. Even in school or now in college ? i din get why people can b friend then bcome best friend sum bcome “ heng dai “ but why not me. Its that i act too cool, i not think so. But in the fact , alot people like “act pig eat tiger” . By the heart i asking to who is reading my blog. If 1 day, u cant find out ur friend is using u, what u will feel ? TO have sum1 is reli treat u good, treat u as friend such as will helping u when u got problem not giving u such as stupid comment. The most pantang to me is , where got people asking u Be urself then saying bad thing behind. Nowonder people say finding a good friend is hard but looking a friend is easy. Such as people say, learning bad thing just take few hours but if learning good thing is was take 10year or maybe more. Value of friend to me is Zero, when i get sum best friend sure got GHOST behind the scene to make sum bad plan. Be alone is hard to survive. Why people like to take people attention with doing stupid action. Is useless and is not mean all people will like u but will b hate u more then u think.

Sum1 i need it

Is girl or boy ? pls lar, anypeople i also need. not mean nid for sex. Sumtime got un-well feeling, this is sum1 i need for chat and speak out with listen people thinking. This world , no people is perfect as we think, even study get 100% but in apart of love just 1%. I cant forcast coming soon event/ future image. I know who i need who i dun nid, i din mean u not into Kuala Lumpur, i cant have chat wit u, all this not true, different country different thinking as pepatah say “di mana ada kemahuan , di situ ada jalan” not ur type, not suitable, all this just a reason to skip sum1, if u treat people good by heart, the people will feel it. Even i know is far away, what i can do, is just wait you and wait you. However, if sum1 is hurting me alot, i din know how to 4give it, coz i still scary is will happend for second time. If you really care of me, try to show it. Dun say it only “ Belum cuba , belum tahu “ i not a customer servies. But i can be sum1 to be your listener. Open for people to apply in but not walk in..

Myself

Falling in love with myself, i hope i get this power to control myself. A person born in pisces. Sumtime i also din understand myself, what i wan, what i need ? i try alot alot thing but not bad as u think ? in my future, still in progress to field of communcation skill. Even myself also cant understand what i want. When i know what i need then will be my aim. Gain fat even not fat at all. Leaning alot lesson day by day. In the end, what i gain is full of skill of liar. This is Earth life, we must be more cruel with bad for my pertahanan diri before attack people. Be too good in this world, alot people datang mengambil kesempatan. This is wat i learning during 18years old. Now reborn of Bad zach, u just watch and learn the different exzach and b4zach during now.

Hope of fate

Aim of sumthing but cant reach. If i hope for sumthing, would i get it ? of course NO.. people say money can buy alot alot thing but is tat can buy Love, Myself, Trust, friendship. There all is unlimited value. Credit card, can i swap for buying u. When i did sumthing bad, the news of bad will fly, fly and fly very fast. But if i do sumthing good and make it proud, people will say “ liar liar and liar “ so what we need for now ? can sum1 tell me ?