Never Let Go

Happiness in our life is to live our life without living up to people's expectations.

Be there for a friend whenever, wherever and whatever the circumstances.

Your effort will be wasted if you put it into someone who doesn't cares about you.

No matter who you are, you deserve to be loved.

An apology will be meaningful when you mean it from your heart, not when you say it to make yourself feel better.

The valuable people in our lives are those who can make us smile on our weakest days.

Sometimes, we just wait for the right moment and place to know our own hearts.

Although actions speak louder than words, hearing the words from you is another way to confirm your feelings for me.

We can cry and be strong at the same time. Tears are not a sign of weakness.

A frightening obstacle is not an enemy in front of us. it's our own fear that stops us from facing it.

Nothing is too scary if you have someone who is willing to fight with you.

Sometimes, in a relationship, time and space can help us realize what we really want.

~ b4zach ~

29 April 2023

Myths on Feeling

...

Crying alone

Confused and lonely inside

Standing in the crowd

But I can’t shake the emptiness inside

I feel so lost

I let time and nights pass me by

Love had no meaning

Feeling is the cause

Rejection is #pain, 

but the most painful is losing you in unfair value when adjustment takes time to process. 

6 Jan 2023

Be My Love

 Even when you didn't know me

I used to pray. Always touching me with your gaze

The more I try to get to you, its getting further

I don't know how you feel

You know all about it, is it unfamiliar ?

That's how you look, I like everything about it

I can feel it when I miss you. Being next to you when it's hard

I want to be a valuable part to you 

You are the person who changed me. You're too much to me

If you're my part, that's so wonderful 

You know everything, but you pretend 

and try to avoid. That's how you look 

You're so pretty in my eyes

Feb 2021

Worst Chapter 2019

Dear Zach, 

I saw you crying 

See you being discouraged

I see you don't dare to sleep 

The world takes everything you have 

Leave the failure to accompany 

But reject your rejection 

Exploring the night eager but afraid of the light 

You lost your way, let me take you there 

You were never loved 

~ Sad Memory 2019 ~

- Last Post -

I think it's love that makes me standing right here 

It's love that makes my heart want to keep holding on

Although there is only a little chance 

Even if I have to stumble again

Love would still ask me to do this 

To give it to you until you take it

To tell you I love you until you give in

You are my happiness 

Even if you don't take my love now, 
I don't mind starting it all over again 

If in the end, you haven't changed your mind 

It's okay because my heart will never change

If you want to wait until my heart stops beating for you, 

you might have to wait until the world stops spinning 

I think it's love that gives meaning to the word 'life'

It's love that makes waiting easeful
Although the chances are slim

Even if I have to miss many other things 

This wait is worth it because it is you who is at the destination 

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Cross Over Memories

Just to see you off here

Even if I cant understand your thoughts

Maybe you still haven't been aware that I'm waiting for you

Don't understand my true heart

Loneliness always easily break me when I pretend to be independent

Reaching the limit of madness

Letting the feeling accumulated

We are slowly getting closer

Once we cross this unguarded line

It does not matter who's in or out

We're not different

But repeatedly miss the several moments to be connected with each other

You've crossed the line

It does not break the rules and there is nothing to blame

Because the limit of love already surpassed the understanding

Just let us move forward

When we exceed the limits, don't move backwards

You hold my hand

You and I plucked up our courage to hold a hand

You told me why you had fallen in love me at that time

You said... 

You will always... 

Like me...

 ~ 520 ~

Distance

Distance...

Can't separate us apart

We're just an arm each away

But loving you

It's more important

And more precious than anything else

I promise

I'will remember everything

Regardless of the good or bad

Happiness or suffering

I'll forever think of the times we had together

and everything about you

So even until my last breath

I won't forget about you

The horizon, and the balcony

Where we used to stand

And look up the sky together, that tree

I'll take care of it

To remember us, when you're not here

I promise you

I'll remember everything

I'll remember and love you just like this

5/5/18

Faded

How good it is that we came to love, to bond

To get through a lot of things together

It's love that never expects anyone to understand

There's only us holding hands by each other's side 

I don't know what you are afraid or worrying about 

That you don't dare to say what we are

The answer is here, in our hearts

~ 22/2/2018 ~

#FriendZone

Just to be close to your breath

Just to be able to spend time together

We're just friends. but it's too much to hold back

Your feelings deep inside, what are you thinking?

However much I love you, I've never said it.

I keep everything in my heart inside

Just being happy like this is already great

Will you have a feeling for me?

Have you ever looked at me?

What are we?

Will you have feelings for me?

It's the truth I want to know that's stuck in my heart

But I don't want to ask 

I'm afraid you'll change

Not asking is better

Because I know if I ask you

I'm afraid of those words that might break my heart

I keep everything in my heart inside

Just being happy like this is already great

It's the truth I want to know that's stuck in my heart

But I don't want to ask 

I'm afraid I won't be able to accept it

- First and Last Post-July 2017 / Graduated Master Degree -

Between Us

Though we cannot say it...

that we love each other

Cause we know people may not like it

when they know. 

No matter how strong 

our feeling for each other is

Only the two of us know

and must keep it to ourselves

Can't tell anyone

Cause everything is already good as it is

As long we know about it

Our minds connect just by looking into each other's eyes.

Just listening to the same love songs is enough to keep our heart warm 

And there's nothing else I could ask for more

Just know it in our own heart

Just the two of us is enough 

It's more than love. 

No words could ever express

We don;t need to walk hand in hand

Just standing next to each other is good enough

Our love does not require any kind of words to define it 

Though we must not make our feeling for each other known to anyone

Keep this relationship to only the two of us 

Just sharing the same air with you is already good enough 

I don't need anything else 

And I'm not gonna ask for more

Cause everything is already good as it is 

- End of 2016 -

About Last Night

Our story should've ended 

So that I wouldn't get hurt

And wouldn't think about it any more
You might not feel in 'love' 

Within the short period of time we met

It might not be call 'love' 

but it's good enough for me to never forget you

The truth is that 'I shouldn't be here anymore'

When I know that you have her with all your heart 

This just a 'story of a lonely person'

That will never continue

In the end it's 'just me who's being careless'

And thinking only about 'last night'

- August 2016 -

You're ordinary

The truth is that I shouldn't be here anymore

When I knew well that you had their with all your heart

It was just a 'story of a lonely person' 

and I wasn't here with you anymore

In the end, it's my fault that I was careless

I've been thinking about 'last night'

The truth is 'our love' should have ended

and I would not hurt

if I don't not keep 'our story' 

and think about it anymore

You might not feel

with the momentary memories that we met

It couldn't be called 'love'

We didn't breakup because we couldn't love each other 

but it might be because we didn't love each other

July 2016

Make It Right!

I don't know how long before

I'll find the truth in my heart

and find a love

that would never think of leaving

I don't know when i will find it

Or how far I'll have to travel

I've been searching for love for a long time

Even if I'm disappointed and shed many tears

I will never get discourage and give up

Because I believe in true love

I believe with all my heart

I just haven't found it yet

I'm still in search of true love

Because i know true love is real

True love is waiting for me

I will prove true love exists

even if i don't know when

Mid Year 2016

Don't tell me why!

Please don't ask me why

If your heart say you wanted to

Just leave as it should be

Just want you to know I would do anything

and everything for you

because I love you all my heart

that's why there are no condition for me

I know it's wrong but I think it's worthy

Better not let you disappoint at me

if love makes this whole world beautiful

you're the one stated it so clear to me more and more

No matter what I have to pay

No matter how wrong others say

I just want you to stay with me

only me with your heart and soul

if I annoy you sometimes

of if you don't want me

Just tell me I'll give you more space

But if you want to me to leave forever

I don't think I can do it

Because I love you all my heart

That's why there are no condition for me

- Birthday Wish to see you again -

Other Completion

We have to love each other.

We used to love it. 

When he came

Recently, you still felt

And I see that slowly.
He knew you loved

Do not become too much.

If you want from me

If you are going to love one another.

No need to reason
No need to feel guilty about that.

The fact is that you loves me more than anyone else.

We may never love
But you did not love me enough.

If I love you with all my heart.

In you mind would not rest on it. 

But he added

Ago, we still love each other enough.

Will make you strong enough to love them.

The fact is that you loves me more than anyone else.

We may never love
But she did not love me enough.

January 2016

Middle of Raining Night!

Most relationships tend to fail

Not because of the absence of love

Love is always present

It's just that one was being loved too much

and 

the other wasn't being loved enough

9/11/2015

Other Addicted

Perhaps you had not wanted to say anything away.

Perhaps it would not have been synonymous with the mind.

The attempt whether and how to prepare it.

I like that facing reality.

Even in trying to talk to every one.

The intention

But it was like before. It will reveal much.

To say that word 

My voice was lost

Read my lips that ... I will say again ...

And it is this It is not that much longer.

Do not worry, I will love you. 

Do not worry if I change my mind.

I'll be like this ... forever.

I know sometimes it seems trivial.

But I will try to speak to every one.

For all of my heart

It reiterated in this word that you did not love.

~ Ending of August ~

City Heartbreak

In the deep city worlds

Where the future begin with hope 

There nothing more valuable to carry

The dark side in each fate to be face on

When begin of the life

Nothing much can change 

Back to past or looking to future

There only one story to take over 

If the story have been inspired other

There will be no one keep the history

Nothing is pass then will be pass

Future will change depend how we react

Nothing more important than life 

Where you decide to be strong or weak

To stay or travel 

Only one choice to be different 

Mid of August 2015

Lead Me

Do you know how good thing are ?

And do you know how happy I am ?

Do you know how much my old life has changed ?

Do you know that before I met you,

Do you know how I used to be ?

Do you know just how much of an indulgence meeting you had ?

You, you're everything that made my life memorable

Since I met you

The world I once saw as dull, the world that had only emptiness

The skies were dark and the days sad, I didn't think that I could have today

You, you're everything that made my life memorable

Since I met you

Thank you, heaven, for letting us meet

Thank you to the person in heaven who made us able to meet

Thank you for every memory

Who caused me to meet you today

- Beginning of August -

WishList

Master - Sept {Done}

Bicycle - Nov

MacBook - before end of this year

26/7/2015